natalie: i can’t believe you just beeped my boob with your butt
Alone Together | Fall Out Boy
I don’t know where Im going but I don’t think I’m coming home, and I said I’ll check in tomorrow if I don’t wake up dead.
does anyone want to A) do an art trade/collab/something idk or B) read my paper for social stratification on class and political power and tell me what 30000 things i need to cut out or elaborate on because i went off on hella tangents
two weeks to my birthday B)
#sexuality #sexual harassment #abuse #parents
i’m so upset and confused when it comes to anything that has to do with sex like i don’t know my sexuality (re: gender or re: a/gray-a/demi/sexual) and i’m just scared of being looked at or touched and even though i am comfortable with my body overall i hate being viewed sexually
and i don’t know who to blame like do i blame my abuser or my harassers or my daddy issues or our body-shaming society or what?? i want to fit in and be accepted but i don’t want to have to try to fit myself into a category or lie to myself but most of all i am lonely and want to be loved and i don’t know what that means to me and if that entails sex or not and what counts as sex and what my boundaries are and what other people want or not but then i realize it doesn’t matter because nobody desires me anyway
Wang Ji-Won in “Oh, My Ophelia” for Korean Vogue Girl April 2007 photographed by Oh Joong Seok
hmmm i used to think that i didn’t really look up to anyone, but i’ve realized that i really look up to so many people… it’s so hard though because?? family? friends? acquaintances who do cool things? authors? actors? bloggers? style icons? artistic influences? i don’t know who to even start with. i look at them as inspiration, motivation to make a change— in myself, in my community, or in society as a whole.